In Loving Memory of Alucard Hunter..

Alucard left a suicide note behind;

When you read this, ill be gone.
ive done alot of stupid things in my life, theres also happen'd alot of bad things around me.
i know im just a low life, trying so hard to succeed, but always fails, so
im saying this to all my friends; Success is my only option, failures not!
and i only have one shot.
Jess, i know ive been an asshole, lying to you, trying to keep you from commiting, but
i never really loved you, i loved you as the best friend i could ever have, you were
always there for me in the past, i was just trying to repay the favour.
Hope, i love you, i love'd you then, and i love you now wherever i am.
just remember we'll meet again some day, i just hope it wont be soon
Curtis, my little bro, my best buddy in all the world, i know you feel alone, deserted and all
but remember little guy, youre never alone, i hope youll take good care of Hope now,
take care of my house for me, youre the man now. please make Jessy understand.
Everybody on sheezy, youre all such kickass friends, im hoping to see you again some time..
you all think im so great, but im not..
im a handicapped person, a bad person..
i always try to do the right thing, but it turns out oposit, i had a scarred upbringing, and Curtis, i know you had too
but you gotta be strong, youre the man now.
i lie to do the right thing, and i also lie to do the wrong thing, but i never tell the truth for the bad, only for the good..
Curtis, i know youre almost better than me at both drawing, writing and the guitar.
i want you to just fullfill your dream, never be weak like me, just keep going whatever you do.
and now, its time for a black spot to be removed from this clean earth.
goodbye everyone
im gonna miss you.

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